NEVER again...

So I was freaking out before about not having anything done, nothing cleaned out or moved, nothing at all. Well....most of that still isn't done, I'm kinda waiting for the nesting thing to kick in and our Tax returns to come.

But that's not what I'm freaking out about.

This is the last FULL month that I'm going to be pregnant....EVER. And it is going to FLY by. There are SO many short term things to look forward to this month. Jackson has lots of  "fun" days at school. Like today is Teddy Bear day. Next week he will be captain, and I will have to make treats and stay in class for that. Then he will have a swim day and also GRADUATION at the end of this month. I see the diabetic counselor every Thursday, and will start my Non Stress Tests (NST) this month and will go weekly till the the babies are born. Two GREAT people will be throwing me baby showers. And Ben and I wanted to take the boys on  a short excursion to Las Vegas. And all that is just extra thrown into the mix of everyday life.

All the busy-ness is FANTASTIC and I'm so excited about every minute of it but I am NEVER going to get this precious time back. I will never be pregnant again. I will never feel a baby kick my bladder and make me want to pee my pants. I will never get to check in with a doctor on the growth and development of a baby within me. You see, when I'm "with child" I feel the very closest to my Heavenly Father because I pray constantly. The large belly is a huge reminder that I am NOT the one in charge or control. I don't get to decide on life's trials, and it is a constant reminder that I need to put my full faith and trust in HIM that everything is going to be ok and work out the way that it is supposed too.

I have been so busy wishing this pregnancy time away and now the finish line is end site and i don't want to cross it. I'm so excited to have these new special spirits and SO scared at the same time. What did I do that made me worthy to have them? to have all four of my babies? I don't know, and I will probably never know until the time comes that I get to cross the veil again. I just hope and pray that I will be able to ALWAYS stay so close.

Baby Shower!

Didn't they turn out SO SO cute! I love them. My favorite part is the "Twenty Little Fingers and Twenty Little Toes". It made me stop and think...yep that's a lot of fingers and toes.

Thank you to my dear dear bestie Brooke for putting this on...and Dave for funding it. hehehe

(If you are part of the Cram Family you probably did not get one of these. Des is throwing a family shower at the end of this month. I just didn't want anyone to feel obligated to have to come or especially buy presents. But please come if you would like....you are more then welcome. (or if you want to wait that's ok too.)

the best position EVER!

Whoa, whoa, whoa....sleeping position!

Not the "other" kind of positions.....you sicko! lol

I found the best sleeping position last night. I just kept sighing because I was SO comfortable. It required three body pillows and three regular pillows and a fan on in the room, but I made it.

4 hours of  uninterrupted sleep and I feel FANTASTIC today!

March 29 Ultrasound

I got a sneak peek at the babies the other day. It always makes me feel SO much better....well, knowing that the babies are good, makes me feel better.

This time around the Maternal Fetal Medicine (MFM) doc had a few extra words for me.

The babies are measuring 10 and 7 days LARGER then the due date. Well, My first baby was a 10 pounder and the second was a 9 pounder and he was a week early, I'm not THAT surprised.

But he insisted that he is SURE I have gestational diabetes, even without a test, given my history with insulin resistance and the current size of the babes, and he set me up the a diabetic counselor for the very next day and told me NOT to do the glucose test with Doc Astle's office.

What does that mean for me? On the bright side, I don't have to do that nasty glucose test and I get to eat 5-6 small meals a day. All loaded with protein and few carbs. NOT so hard right? Just have to be a better planner. No concentrated sugar...i.e. candy (my fave right now), chocolate, cookies, cereal--the only thing quick enough in the morning so I don't barf (thank you prenatals) and so on. I will test my blood sugar before and after EVERY meal. Not too bad right? Its just going to be hard to adjust my diet and it's going to take A LOT of pre-planning for meals.

Sigh...the things we do for our children. Even before they are born :) But i am happy to do it if it means they are born healthy.

On another note...I am becoming increasingly more irritable and frustrated. Frustrated with body, frustrated with the lack of sleep and frustrated with the soreness. This too shall pass...right? Yep, it will, in no more then 7 or 8 weeks.